Me and the boys

I don’t remember the last time I wrote this way. In fact, I don’t really want to.. I was pretty sad, depressed really, not up to speed with life. A lot has changed since the last time I put my mind out on the internet.

My university degree, friends, family, relationships, all took a big turn during this period.

I probably have never mentioned this in a previous post, but I smoke. Occasionally cigarettes, recreationally the kush. For multiple reasons throughout my life, when I came across weed for the first time I found it calming and relaxing as it’s meant to, but I found it turn my weaknesses into my strengths.

The confidence and scoped vision it helped me achieve, not psychadelically but in real life, was something I had never experienced before. I don’t want to make this post about me smoking and feeling good, but mentioning it is important to set the tone for the kind of mindset I had going into a lot of things this past year.

When it comes to progression in terms of academics, my graph is going up! I’m not a scholar, but scoring good grades or continuously improving grades is good enough for me. I’ve managed to keep myself and everyone at home satisfied with my performance. That’s a plus.

This year I decided to take many initiatives, pushed my boundaries a bit, made decisions I thought I would never make and put myself on a really great path for the future.

My friends have been the true saviours throughout this storyline. Especially one. I need someone to spend time with, I cant live without my friends, that’s the way I am, luckily there was always someone to play some FIFA, get some head-shots in COD or roll a fat one to set the vibe.

I’m hoping to really start blogging, I want to make my life a journal, as I’ve always wanted to, I keep ducking in and out of committing to it, and this blog is proof of that. You might be wondering why the title of this issue is Me and The Boys.

“Meandtheboys” is my new brand idea. I really want to push my life as a journal of photos and stories out into the world for people to reflect on. All I was looking for were a couple of travelers like me to join me on this venture. Luckily, I found the boys.

I’m looking forward to post everyday this time. Thank you to all the viewers for giving me their time. Check back tomorrow for another ride on this roller coaster.

 

 

 

 

Day 164 – Friends

Today was great. Finally caught up with a couple of friends. We hung out for the entire day, played a bit of Fifa, went out for dinner and had a really good time.

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Today was the day I finally caught up to myself. I got a bit of alone time and I met my best friends after so long.
The vacations officially started and everyone’s planning to go somewhere.
One of my friends is going to Nainital with his family, and the other one is leaving in a week or so for Pune. I’m the only one stuck here.
One my friends already left last week for a college tour and won’t be back for a month.

It’s alright tho, I’m happy we’re all going to Goa in June, it’ll be fun!

The students who had to call their parents yesterday, were let off. They were told they’d receive an email in a couple of days, deciding what actions will be taken against them.
It’s going to be alright, our university luckily isn’t that brutal towards their students.

That was the day to be honest, not much to it really. One of my uni friends left for her hometown today as well, she won’t be back until the re-examinations. I wanted to meet her for the last time but she left before I got the chance.
It’s cool, we’ll probably talk over the phone.

I need to start making some plans for all this free time I’m going to have.
I’m planning to do a couple of courses, but with our trip coming up, I’m not sure if that’ll be possible.

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Day 163 – Results

Hey everyone, thanks for checking back!

Today was a day full of mixed emotions. To your left you’d see someone cry, to the right someone ecstatic.
Today was the day we got our results. The end semester examinations ended a week ago, and most of us were eagerly waiting for our results to come in.

I had completely blocked myself out for the past month from everything just to focus on the finals and convert any bad grades I had.
Luckily, it turned out pretty good for me. I was expecting to appear for re-examinations of two subjects, but I managed to barely pass one of them and now I have to only deal with one. (I’ve mentioned this in the previous blog).

So, we also had our ID (Inter-Disciplinary Course) Displays today. All of us choose one subject from a bag of different courses to learn throughout the semester. It’s like an extra subject, but one which you are actually excited about, as you’ve chosen it.

We prepared a short film about Racism over the course of 3 weeks, and we had to display the film in front of the faculties this morning. This was a breeze, everything went well and our professor was very pleased with the outcome.

Meanwhile, our subject papers were being shown in our respective classrooms and all of us were nervous for one paper in particular. Signals & Systems.

So this is a subject which isn’t one of our core subjects, I mean it is, but for our stream it isn’t that important.
Everyone was afraid of having to appear for re-examinations for this one subject. It would ruin the summer vacations and plus you’d have to tell your parents about it.
I had to score 28 from 40, but I only managed to get 20. I fell short. I expected it. To be honest, I was never able to cling to the subject that easily, and scoring 50% in the finals was even better than I had expected.

I’m not scared about the re-examination, I’m pretty confident that I’ll clear the subject.

This wasn’t the case for a couple of my friends though. They weren’t ready to digest the fact that they would have to appear for the re-examinations.
This led to them tampering their exam sheets. They added extra marks inside the supplementary and forged the teachers signature in the front.
While a few of the students added 5-10 marks, one of the girls decided to add 20 marks, otherwise she wouldn’t pass.

She sat down with her exam sheet, as soon as our professor gave them to us for cross-checking.
She wrote a couple of the answers, checked them herself, and signed the paper. She gave it back to the professor in the end and hoped everything would be fine.
Now seeing this, a couple of her friends thought it would be alright to forge the teacher’s signature themselves.

So 4 students out of 50, including the girl I mentioned, do the deed. They give back their answer sheets and leave.

I leave the university and head home. A couple of hours later, our professor sends a message in our WhatsApp group, that he’d like to see “the following students in his staff room immediately, otherwise their marks wouldn’t be uploaded :”

1. The girl I mentioned
2. Her friend
3. One more guy friend
4. One random girl

The three people (1,2,3) are my friends, the 4th girl was a random one, she decided to be discrete and she still failed to pass. We found out about her tampering case when our professor mentioned her in the chat.

So yeah, their worst nightmare came to life, and they were called into the Registrar’s office.
He controls all the mishaps in the B.Tech department.
Turns out, the girl who had checked the paper herself (Girl 1), had done it in such a shit way, our professor figured it out the instant he saw the answer sheet again.
Because of her, everyone was under suspicion and he decided to check each and every paper again for any changes the students might have done themselves.
Now bear in mind, while there were only a couple of students who’d have to appear for the re-examination, 4 people randomly disappear from the list.

As they were in the office, a couple of other teachers were also there. They passed the girl’s answer sheet around, scolding her and “praising” her for her efforts.

If this wasn’t enough for them to feel guilty, the Registrar decides to call their parents tomorrow and gives them three options:

1. Re –  examinations
2. ATKT (Allowed to keep terms)
3. Rustication

So out of these three options, re-examination was a hard one to get now, rustication was a bit to extreme as per the University norms, so I guess they’ll decide to go with an ATKT for all the students.
The final decision hasn’t been made yet, we’ll get to know tomorrow about that, but yeah, that was something.

Today was a day of self realisation for a lot of people. Hopefully they’ll be able to reflect back on the mistakes they made today, to prevent them from happening in the future.

Its crazy how someone’s life can change in a fraction of seconds.

I’m happy I didn’t decide to cheat. I would’ve been kicked out the house for doing that. Maybe I’ve learnt something very important too.

Sometimes it just feels like people are running away from themselves. Its to tough for some people to accept the fact that it is their fault. Even after such a dreadful day, the students decide to blame each other or the teacher or someone else, but never themselves.
That’s one of the problem’s I guess.

Thanks for reading. Much Love.
Check back in tomorrow for the rest of the ride.

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Day 18 to Day 162 – Stability

I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this in my previous blogs, but, the real reason I started to write blogs was for an escape from reality. I’m sure a lot of people in this community do that, and it definitely makes a big difference in real life for the people that do.

The last day I posted, day 17 was a couple of weeks before I’d be leaving for Mumbai.

The 2 weeks for which I uploaded blogs was a rough patch for me. Blogs were something I used, to get an opinion from others about my life, not that, that really matters, but still, it helps, a lot.

I stopped writing because I was feeling better again, I was going to visit a city for the first time and new things were going to happen, so I just stopped. I didn’t even give the idea another thought. I guess that was a mistake.

So after I went to Mumbai, I had a blast. I actually wish I would’ve posted about it, because I would’ve loved to read back on those posts. I met up with a couple of friends there and we hung out around Juhu beach and Powai for the next couple of days.

Mumbai is an eccentric city, full of life, basically the New York of India. Although it has its downsides, if you’re in the right place at the right time, you’d wish to stay for the rest of your time.

I came back from Mumbai, and our 2nd Semester started. Now this semester was alright, a couple of subjects which most of us hated, but we thought we’d be able to cope with them. Nope. Now as the results are approaching I’m pretty tensed about one subject and I’m afraid I’ll have to appear for a re-examination.

It isn’t something that terrible, but it definitely ruins your summer vacations as the re-examination is 2 months after your final results, that is before the new semester starts.

So yeah, that’s a bummer. Then around March, we had our technical fest. Innuvate, is something we, the students of B.Tech organise for our college.
It’s exciting, a lot of events are held and students from different colleges attend the fest, participating in different competitions, attending workshops, winning prizes, etc.

The best thing about the fest, was that finally we were a part of something. Even though as juniors we get the “labour” work, it was fun. You get to know all your seniors, meet new people coming from other colleges, develop management skills, communications skills, etc.
You also learn a lot about the people who you’ve been studying with for the past year. Even though you think you know them, people always change. Only when certain opportunities arise, people either change for the better or for the worse.

So yeah, that’s basically it, and this time, I’m not starting again because I feel depressed or sad, lonely or unfortunate. This time I’m starting because I don’t want to stop.

Reading back on these posts makes you realise how much you’ve grown as a person even in 2 weeks or 4 months!

I’m excited to start writing again. It’s been a long time but the passion never fades.

If you’re reading this, I love you. Thanks for checking back in, and if you were disappointed the last time I stopped writing, I’m sorry.
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Day 17 – Idiots

Today was great. Everything was perfect.

This situation changed the moment we decided to book my hotel tickets for Mumbai. 

So I’m attending the IIT Techfest in a couple of weeks. Obviously to stay and travel I’ve booked train tickets and hotel tickets. 

Now just to make sure everythings set, I cross check my dates again. To my surprise the techfest has been extended by one day. Without any notice, without any warning, they’ve decided to add one more day to the summit. Now I have to change my bookings or cancel them and rebook them. I have to pay any extra charges that may occur in the process. Basically a whole lot of problems for me, where I’m not even the one in fault.

Now, the first thing I do is I contact the administrator of the summit, tell him about the dilemma and ask for a solution.

He tells me that it’s cool if you attend the 2 days of the summit as you were going to, all you have to do is send in an email with your query and attach proof of your travel tickets, that you actually can’t attend the third day as you have booked your tickets already. This is all a hastle trust me. It’s not as easy as it sounds.

I’ve lost all trust in these idiots, because if they can just add a day without warning or informing us, whats the guarantee that they will give me my certificate even if I submit my query and proof.

If I hadn’t decided to check up on their website about the dates, who knows what wouldve happened.

Such a respected college, the best in India, IIT Bombay, and they have this shit coordination and administration systems which resembles that of a shitty college. What you expect is not what you get in this situation. 

Now me being paranoid, I ask him everything just to confirm every little detail of the summit. I find out that it’s compullsary for me to bring in my laptop with some pre-installed software which would be necessary for the summit workshops. 

At this point I’m furious, 9 days prior to the summit, which is in a different state, I’m getting all this new information which is neither mentioned on their site or elsewhere. The more questions I ask, more new info I get.

I want to attend all the three days, but it’s risky to stay in a city like Mumbai on the night of a new year. There’s drunks, kidnappers and all kinds of weird people roaming the streets and the trains. If my luck is loose, who knows what could happen. 

So it’s a problem for me to attend the third day, and it’s a problem for me to only attend two days, because what about the certificate.

This is so stupid and just dumb. How could you expect this from the country’s best college. 

I’m in a dilemma, but it’s late here, and me and my dad have decided to deal with the situation tomorrow.

Hopefully things work out and I do end up getting the certificate.

This is bullshit.

Sorry about the language and thanks for reading.

Much Love.

Day 16 – Anniversary

Today was a good day. 

It’s my parents’ anniversary today, 21 years of togetherness and their still kicking it strong. We’re blessed that way. 

The morning was pretty normal you know, we all woke up and me and my sisters wished both of them on their anniversary. Dad had planned a couple of secret presents for mom, which he had told me about the previous day. He was going to get her a new phone as her old one was pretty much garbage. He also got her this I “heart” you showpeice with a I love you jingle. 

She was really happy about both the presents. Even though mom couldn’t manage to get dad something, dad was grateful for the 21 years of patience, and support mom had given him. It was pretty emotional.

We went out for dinnner, all of us, I guess they’ll have their own dinner tomorrow pr something, to get some alone time.

That was the highlight of the day, but on another note, I finally bought a new PS4 controller. I had only one, and it was so frustrating when any of my friends came over, we couldn’t play any games together.

So that was that. I called up one of my friends and he came over, we played fifa for a bit, finally…

We also went to the temple today, as it was their anniversary, to seek blessings was the usual.

That was pretty much today, short and sweet. The day did end pretty quick today.

I guess I’ll see you tomorrow then.

Thanks for reading and the constant support.

Much Love!

Day 15 – Dreams

Today was necessary. One of my friends went to Canada today, to pursue his studies. All of us went to see him off, and it was a nice goodbye from all of us. 

I haven’t known the guy for a long time but all of us became closely attached because of college. It’s a good group of friends, I’d say.

One of my qualities is jealousy. Not the envious kind, the healthy kind. Where I see someone who is doing better than me or achieving something I want to, and I become inspired. I don’t hate that person or wish they never had any of it, but I look for ideas and inspiration from that person in order to achieve the same for me.

From the past couple of years it’s been my dream to study and work in a foreign country. Most probably America or Canada, who knows where I’ll end up.

But it’s been a strong long term goal since as far as I can remember. I’ve been to the UK and the US before, but that was when I was growing up, and I did my schooling for a couple of years there. 

This time it’s different, I want to see myself become something, I have goals I want to achieve and places I want to be at, and in order to achieve these goals, it’s important for me to be as independent as I can and give my parents an assurance of being able to survive on my own if they decide to let me go.

This friend of mine leaving the country and pursuing his dream is something that fuels me, it motivates me to the maximum extent, and I’m happy for him. 

I don’t want to follow someone else’s dream but I want to use their successes to help fuel mine, to look up to them in some sort of way.

Today was really about that. I visited him and all of us went to see him off at the airport. It was kinda emotional, but we all cleared our throats in the end.

I’m so pumped right now, I just can’t wait to achieve so much more, and seeing him go like this, its so so motivating.

I don’t want to be a part of the crowd. You have to stand out if you want to people to see you, respect you for what you’ve achieved.

Going to a different country for studies isn’t an achievement, but it’s a start for alot of them. There are so many opportunities to grab hold of, even though a couple of years are left for me to apply and go, I’m ready.

I can’t wait. Hopefully I’ll be writing my blogs till then, to tell you all about it.

Thanks for the consistent support, hopefully you all have dreams and something or someone to look up to.

A like, comment or share is always appreciated. 

Much Love!

Day 14 – Perfect

Today was amazing, exhausting and really really fun.

Finally went back to the marathon committee meetings after a week of being sick, and luckily the women’s car rally was today.

Even though I wasn’t alloted a specific job, I was an extra and still got to help out a bit. Basically the women car rally consists of alot of women car drivers, 42 to be specific, and they decorate their cars with the intent to raise awareness. There are alot of problems in this country, like poverty, underage marriage, high suicide rates, etc. And they portray these problems on their cars, to raise awareness about the matter.

It was a great rally overall, and I’m glad I got to be a part of it.

We went to the meetings in the morning where everything was decided and then to the starting point of the rally a couple hours later.

Me and a friend had a breather between the two sessions and we went kite flying, on his terrace.

The kite festival “Uttarayan” is coming in a couple of weeks, and it’s really exciting for all of us. We practiced for a couple of hours, one of my friends cut is finger pretty bad to, but it was amazing. Today was great.

So then the rally commences, it goes for about 10km and there’s this prodium set up at the finishing point, where the winners and the runner ups are given their prizes.

I met Tejal Amin Ma’am, the head of all of Navrachana, basically the owner. Even though it’s not a big deal for a lot of people, I was ecstatic, she’s an amazing human being, and I’m glad I got the opportunity.

Tomorrow’s Sunday, a little break, even though I don’t think I need one. The past week was the biggest unnecessary break, and I don’t plan on stopping.

I’ll probably go fly some kites again tomorrow, meet a couple of my friends, and oh yeah, one of my friends is going to Canada tomorrow, I’m going to go to see him off probably. 

Till then, thanks for reading, and thanks for all the love in the past couple of blogs. Every bit helps, and I’m glad people respond.

See you tomorrow!

Much Love!  

Day 13 – Inevitable

Finally missed a day. The last thing I wanted to happen but there’s nothing else I could do.

Luckily I’m feeling alot better now, almost ‘normal’, and finally I can get back to writing.

So today was good. After a dry spell, I finally got to meet a couple of my friends, watched a movie and finally went out the house.

Been going to the doctor daily, just to check up and make sure the fever is gone for good and doesn’t bounce back or something.

Haven’t gone to the commitee meetings for 5 days. They know I was ill, but I’m gonna have to catch up alot. I’m starting again tomorrow and hopefully I won’t be stopping this time.

I’ve learnt to pick myself up again and again, even though this was just a small illness, because I’m such a couch potato, or maybe was, it’s so easy for me to give up kr give in.

I could easily call in sick for the next couple of days, but all that does is punch my life back, and it stops me from progressing. 

One of my friends is going to Canada on Sunday, and we’re thinking of buying him a nice gift. Bon voyage to him.

One of the things I hate about myself is the fact that I don’t stay in touch with people. Not only that, I take a really long time to commit to someone, and this isn’t about relationships, this is just about normal friendships.

I haven’t called, messaged or tried to contact any of my college friends since the vacation break. When we go back after our break, I’ll obviously be normal with everyone, but everyone doesn’t understand that, they expect a call, a message or something, but I just can’t do that for some reason.

Finally after an unhealthy week, my trains back on track, and hopefully it won’t stop.

I’m going to Mumbai in a couple of weeks, to attend a techfest at IIT Bombay, that’ll be fun. A little escape is always nice.

Sorry to everyone who reads daily, yesterday was just the worst.

Thanks for the support, it keeps me going! Catch you tomorrow.

Much Love!

Day 11 – Tired

There’s so much I want to talk about today, but I just can’t. 

I’m tired of being sick now, I can’t do anything.

I hate how this is affecting my writing as well, but there’s nothing I can do.

I sleep for like 17 hours a day, just because of the meds and the rest of the time I’m either eating or drinking something. 

I am getting better, but slowly.

Hopefully this is the final stretch.

Much love and thanks for reading.